Britney’s last letter of truth was a big disappointment, but this time Britney actually opens up about rehab, her kids, her former manager, and more. Read it all below.
Dear Fans,
I just wanted to reach out to all of you and explain some of the things that I have been faced with recently.
It’s so funny how many stories are put out there about people. It’s like we all want our side of the story out there as well, but at the end of the day only a few people care to hear what is really going on since the bad is always so much more interesting than the truth. I don’t know why, but this is so weird to me. I used to be angry at the tabloids for printing horrible things about me, but now I try to just be numb to what I see. I saw Tyra Banks once get really upset and cry on her show because they made her look fat. We all want a certain image of ourselves out there, and at some point we all do really care what other people think or we wouldn’t be here.
Recently, I was sent to a very humbling place called rehab. I truly hit rock bottom. Till this day I don’t think that it was alcohol or depression. I was like a bad kid running around with ADD. I had a manager from a long time ago come in and try to direct me and my life after I got my divorce. I was so overwhelmed I think that I was in a little shock too. I didn’t know who to go to. I realized how much energy and love I had put into my past relationship when it was gone because I genuinely did not know what to do with myself, and it made me so sad. I confess, I was so lost.
This letter is to not place blame on anyone, although I do see the world with a completely different set of eyes now. Being in that vulnerable state and taken to dinners and parties with friends and finding out later you paid for everything was a huge learning lesson for me. I think the whole problem was letting too many people into my life. You never know another persons intentions or what another person wants. I feel I was too open and looking for answers when I had it all to begin with. I have had to cut so many people out of my life. It is so sad, because if anyone is a family person…it is me. When I was little I remember every night watching movies with my family and feeling so at peace. Dancing and singing all the time just like a little girl should. Now recently I find with my children that I want them to have that feeling all of the time. I am having to face a lot of things right now since I have children of my own. A lot of insecurities from when I was little are coming up again. It is like we are never good enough.
I know everyone thinks that I am playing the victim, but I am not and I hate what is going on right now so much. Maybe this is the reason for this letter…to maybe allow people to look at me differently. It is like when you are a real woman and say what you feel and how you think things are supposed to be, that people just say you are a “bitch.”
I feel like some of the people in my life made more of some issues than was necessary. I also feel like they knew I was beginning to use my brain for a change and cut some ties, so they wanted to be in more control of my life than me. I think it is actually normal for a young girl to go out after a huge divorce. I think it was a bigger issue because I had not gone out in such a long time. I am 25 and I do still have a lot to learn, and I am going to make mistakes everyday, and I am sure every mistake I make will probably be on CNN or Good Morning America. I am only human people and I love you for still loving me.
I am sitting here at home and it is 6:25 and both of my sons are asleep. I am truly blessed to have them in my life. Everyday is so surreal. Life in general is so surreal and crazy.
I just hope this letter made some of you think a little bit more of me and where I am coming from. I just want the same things in life that you want…and that is to be happy. It is just so weird because everyone has their own perception of me and how they think I really am. It is so weird how stories are told. There is your side, my side, and the truth. Somebody has to figure it out. I guess we will never really understand or figure out life completely. That’s God’s job. I can’t wait to meet him…or her.
Love, Britney
Quote of the month…
It is ok to disagree with people regarding certain issues. Youre not being true to yourself if you succumb to others opinions because you feel guilty.
Posted on Britney’s official website.
Britney, I’m sure you get millions of comments and I really dont expect to get a response. I have as little girl that is 3 years old and she is my world. I agree with you how lies are more interesting than the truth but reading your letter is also very interesting to fing out what the truth is and no one wants to hear bad things about themselves especially lies. I enjoy reading your letters and knowing the truth and knowing that you are doing better than the tabloids like to claim, they just want to make you look bad. So I was just wondering. You went through all of that to shave your head, why cover it up? Flaunt it girl! xxxooo April
Hey there,
Just wanted to drop a line! Have been a fan of yours since i can remember. I feel terrible for all the things that paparazzi has put you through. The tabloids are unbelievable. I could never follow their version of “GOSSIP”. I don’t see how public can support this type of venture. It is nice once in a while to hear what is going on in your life, all is well, or that your career is blossoming, not some people making up stories and disrespecting you. It hurts me deeply that they have chipped at you for soooooo long. I’ve seen interviews that bring you to tears, and not even knowing you personally, tears my heart!!! Hope all is well, and that you’re somehow finding happiness.
HUGS + KISSES
KAMIL
Britney, Life sucks especially after a hard bump in the road,by that I mean a man! You have more support than you realize and that is the truth for anyone. We want you to succeed for you and your boys. I hate to watch the whirlwhind of your life because it is so publicized. I can only be grateful that I don’t have the public looking in on my world. You will be fine and so will your boyz. We love you and support you even if you’ve never met us. Keep your head up…the grass is always greener on the other side!
lifes shit deal with it
Look brit im young sometimes i feel the same way about life 2 but u had a great childhood i didnt get back with your family back on track without kev then peeople will realise how u can deal with ya self you will be tried out agian with ya kids and they will realise u can cope with your kids and ya self!plz take this in i have cried after watching your vid live in l.a and u are young you still have plently 2 get through i love you and hope ya get better, megan
hai i love you britney i love you so much mu ………………………………………………………………………..h.
Hey Britney,
You probrably wont read this but still heres what i think.
1. The paparazzi are gay little sh*theads who need to get a real job.
2. You rock, you’ve got so much talent, it doesn’t matter what anyone says,
3. no matter who you are people will hate you. And the more people you know that number grows.
I hope you survive through this ordeal, life’s sucks. We all know it. Glad you do to.
A humble fan, x
hi brit
just want you to now i love you and keep up the good work..forget about the paps let them write about you aslong as you now your rite and your fans now your rite what should you care…i now your going to do just great!!!!!!!!!!!!!so come on brit lets see morexxx p.s love your two boys there so cutexxxxxxx